As a child I was blessed with two grandmothers. Two wonderful women, strong-willed, powerful, and, in many ways, each others opposites in life. United in me, for I was named after both of them. One showed, taught me love for music, the piano, and, what was than called, proper behavior. She awoke the eagerness in [...]
I’ve been betrayed, o shi*…. Betrayal is such a defining experience, it lays your heart completely bare. Betrayal shows precisely where you are weak and where you are mighty; all in one emotion. Betrayal shows your loyalty and reveals the lies you’ve been telling yourself. And being betrayed by another person is often a reflection [...]
Pain, emotional pain. There are a couple of stages. First there is the pain you feel because it’s deep in your being, in real time, working on you. And than there is the pain you feel when it’s ready to be released. The first pain is the hurt you’re carrying with you now, today. It’s [...]
When I recognized that I had done everything I knew to do, and still there was a force of suffering alive in me, I cried out my despair into the Universe. In my despair I grew out every thought, every feeling, every everything that came up, and I prayed. The great benefit of that prayer [...]
Deep grief can be felt like a specific location in your body, your life, a coordinate on a map of time. When a ravishing event occurs in life and you are hurt beyond hurt, grieve is here. And the odd thing, you know exactly who you were before and after this grieve occurred. When you [...]
Life happened and you worked through it. You stopped, became still, openend, trusted your gut and finally got there. After the grinding, the repetitive strain, the cord-cutting of the old stuff, the screams of release, the bliss of relief, your courage and hard work got you over the finish line. Your Souls’s fire resurrected you [...]
Saying goodbye to the old and in with the new: gratitude is here. And oh my I am so very good at new year’s writings…… I just re-read the ones from the past 4 years and the funny part, it not only said something about my past year, somehow it also predicted how the coming [...]